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he r iam in my romm

Date: April 12th, 2013 Mood: Calm

so he ri am in m y ro mm. i am ok.

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s ad :(

Date: April 16th, 2013 Mood:

so to day i am so s ad adn mad i g es. not re ly mad b utm oer sad. i am m ad at pepi l t aht cl am e t ah yh aev n of re dns y et tahy ha ev a tlest soem eppei l to ta kl to a dn t aht tahy c an re ly on. n oew i no t me ntien ign an y na ems her b ut i n oew at l est 1 o r 2 p epi l taht cl am e ti hs. it rel ly ma ek me m ad weh n pep il fdo ti hs. espesh al y wehn i ha ev n ob ody.
las tn i et i sl ep t wei th momy. the win d was re ly rel ly bad a dn re it no w i am so so sc aerd bec ase it is mu hc we rse. adn to ame km a ters wo rse y et i am cr y ign re it no w.i we tn ot side - to tel br av ery on m y pa tr- to say h elp to m ych iken s (i ha ev a few co pps) o en o f my co pps was E MTY! adn ge ss wehat guys... te co p tah t was em ty, was teh co p tah t has my pri nses in it. :( ya sh e is g oen. go en... adn tu in as weil. :( so my d ay go t mu hc wers e. i fel l iek m y wer ld is g ievi gn i n adn evry ti gn iscol ap sei gn o n me. liek tahre is no h oeop fo r me.

let me get to t he web sei t adn prog ram ign s tuf n oew... t he g od st uf. we il may co nt ane soem bad st uf b ut we hat ever.... i am c uren tly werk ign o n 2 pro j ekts. 2 se tis (not in kludi gn ti hs oen). o en i s pre ty go d n eds a f ew ti hgsn herr a dntahre. taht o en is op en to the pu b lek a dn has a lo to f us ers. the oht er oen il iter ely ju ts oep nd on wen sday. so i ges iw eil se we hat the f uter br ings fo r taht. i noew i n ot gi ng to lei v f or e ver but les tehn 2 y ers ag o i did e nt th inc i was gi ng to lei v as l ogn as to day.

adn peek ign o f hel th wi es.. i act al y fel ok. lei k i doe tn f el si kc re lly. i us ed to f el t eri d a dn ak ey l eik fl u l eik s tuf butn oer i deo tn rel y. i get di a rea so etm im s b ut tah t juts apart of ti hgns. i c an s til go thro w ot d ay adn perfo rm st uf lei k i sh old. adn on fri d ayi ing to a jo b f are. my m om ym ake ign m e go. i g es it wei l be go d for me aga ne. have ign aj ob. imeen gi ng to aj ob fare dos int ga ran tee yuo weil g te oen. i do e tn n oew how i fel ab uot t aht. i a fr ade of ti hgsn. i afr ade pep il weeil mae k fun of m e liek a lot of pep il do. liek.. we hat if tah y doe tn li ek me? adn c al m e a re ta rd?

as o f rie t n ow ti hs mo m int i am cu re ntly: u pd ae itng ti hs b log and l oo ti gn gem s o nr uen sc aep. h ow fun... i stei l haev so em teer s in my e ys.

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si hg -.-

Date: April 19th, 2013 Mood: Sad

yuo n oew we hat?? i am g et ign si kc o f th is c r ap taht is gi ng a ro nd wei th me. we il... not we ith me di r ek tly b ut to m e ba si kal y. so bas ki lay we hat hap en ing h er is t ihs. weil a few ti hgn ac taly. so i noew ti hs g erl o n lien. rei t? she say she my "bes t fred n" adn al of tah t cr ap adn s tuf b ut then... i g et so m uhc ga r bag in the ee nd! se res ly. she tree t me l iek garb ag adn i ha et it. :( sh e s ay to me.. ok s he say t ihs l iek " iah ev no fred sn i rl bal ba bla" n oew to d ay it hsm nir ng i fo dn o t sh e has leik a otn of i rl f red ns TAH T SH E M ET ON LI EN ON A GAME??! w t f is wei th tihs g erl? c an a ny body g eiv me adv is e her?? d ose any body o r ha s an y body ev er b en in m y she os bef ore? im een i am so lo n ly al of the it em. if yuo co ld th inc of 1 lo n ly persin... i t wo ld b e me. def an i tly me. be c ase i s it h er th inc ign a l d ay ad nwi hs ign i had fre a dns a dn taht i ahd fred ns ath t tree ti d me nis ly adn dide nt say ti hgns ab uot me be hdn m yb ak c. bec ase i u sdto hae va best fre nd ad n i al ter fo nd ot sh esa de tihgns ab u ot me be hind my bak c adn wasl iek the h oel tiem. we er fred ns f or l iek 2 yer s to.. ab kc sta ber. :s so an yw ya.

mo veign on to o ther ti hgns...... i am ed a bu nh c of br as list f or pep il at my m om ys f erm. i hoep taht tahy lo ev t ehm a dn act aly wa re tehm. o en of the br as list wiel b e fo r the oen la dys k id. adn i amed oen fo r her to so her a dn her d a ter wei l b oht get o en. :D n o i did n ot ma hc tehm i wi hs taht i ha d b ut i did e nt. st u pied me. :( grrr!i ah te ti hsl ief taht i l ive. :( so em time s i wi hsi col d g oawa y adn tehn co em ba kc wehn i f el ok. do es nay body e ver f ell tah t way? p lese sha er wi e th me. i wo ld lei k to herr. yuo ocm ent sa res an ony mos! :)

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j ob!

Date: May 7th, 2013 Mood: Woo! :D

so ge s we hat g uys.. I GO T A JO B.. W OO HOO! i ah ev h ad a j ob b ef o er b ut i no ew i ahev a n ew jo b. :) i t ah s ben ov er a yee r sin s i ha ev we rk s. i was awa yfo r awe il adn n ow wo oh oo i ahe v a new job. :D i s terar to d ay. i g ot teh jo b yes ter day.i go t t eh int erv e w o k adn evry thi ng. it we tn we l o vi esly. i a l itel n ervis. i d oet n noew we ht to e sp ekt wei ht th is new job. i me en... we hat sh old i es p ekt? wei th g ing in to re ta le aga ne? i n oew a ol o f y u gu ys t el me to juts go o n wei ht the co m puter ogro ram i ng b ut i c at n juts si t he r al diay d ing at ht st uf. t ha re is mo er to l eif teh n com p uter pgrgor am i ng. in oew ti hs.

i go t teh ga r ge sa els on fri day. mo m ys ber th day adn mo h ters d ay on su nd ay ( y ess teh sa em d ay :D) SO I no et rel ly sh er ab uot to ay. i wo tk a lo gn sh if ti g ess it is 8 h ore s lo ng. teh re isn wy ic an g et a jo b so y ung i sb ec ase i do e tn go to sc oll. th ep lus s ied o f it b ut no t rel ly. :/ so ya g uys,... wi hs me l u kc a dn c r ap l iek taht.

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